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THE GIFT OF YOUR FAULTS

How many of us want to admit we are fucked up and damaged? I mean, who walks around with that sign on their back? But guess what, that’s exactly what we need in order to heal. We need to look at our individual areas where we aren’t as pretty as we thought or want others to believe we are. Why? Because of the beauty that comes out of those places:the growth,the tapping into self, the embracing of self, and the freeing of self.

It reveals to us who is in our lives for just us, all of us:the messy,the glory, and the blahs. Recently, I saw a movie with my daughter based on a book. In the movie, one of the characters gave the lead character the gift of her faults. It wasn’t until she was deep in her dark night of the soul that she was able to defeat that darkest part of herself by facing her ugly side which was actually her beauty.
Love isn’t about the flowers, and it’s not about the highs. It’s about who is there when it stinks helping you to get back up and hold that mirror up to you showing you that yup your shit stinks but guess what I’m here because mine does too. May we all will be lucky enough to encounter those that accept us at our worst so we can grow into our best selves.

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Letting Go To Embrace

One of my favorite movies is “The Labyrinth.” One of my favorite scenes in “The Labyrinth” is the junk lady scene after Sarah wakes from the dream where she was at the masquerade ball as she awakens it appears she is back at home in her bedroom. All the things she has collected and loved for many years are in that bedroom, all her valued childhood things. Suddenly she sees a older woman who is going through her stuff and literally putting it on herself her back to be more accurate. This old haggard woman is bogged down by the weight she is applying and carrying on her back she can’t stand tall and appears to be proud that her back is bent and occupied by the weight she has put on herself to carry.

The old haggard woman begins to give the young lady things to hold onto. They are her things from the past specifically her childhood her beloved childhood items. However, it feels wrong that she is accepting more gifts from the woman to put on her back she isn’t at peace the very things that use to comfort her now don’t feel right for this moment of her life. Sarah is trying very hard to remember what it is she is missing, what her mission is, where she is and why she is there. More importantly why she doesn’t have peace about being in the midst of her own belongings.  She looks puzzled, afraid and confused looking at this weighed down older woman who is basically a bag lady carrying trash that she calls her treasure as the bag lady begins to offer Sarah more stuff to carry her intent is to distract her from finding her brother Sarah utters a simple word that holds so much power she says no!

The old weighed down bag lady acts like she doesn’t hear her she keeps telling her here dear you love this remember you love this and she tries to start putting items on Sarah’s back so Sarah can become like her a bag lady. As Sarah comes to herself she immediately starts tossing down all her beloved items because in that moment she remembers who she is and why she is there she has a mission to complete. She must save her brother and complete the labyrinth in order to find herself. Sarah doesn’t realize in this moment of turning away from the very things that are holding her back and trying to weigh her down and distract her the very act of her uttering a simple word NO! She has reclaimed her power and her position. She is no longer allowing her circumstances to dictate her outcome. She has now become the master of the Labyrinth by saying no.

What have you been holding onto for way too long that is bring the weight upon your back? Do you think you need to let it go? You might love it or it may have fit in your life at one point  it may even bring you great comfort,and it may be something that you couldn’t ever see yourself putting down or walking away from. However, now might be the time where you need to start saying no to the things that are making you slump over as you walk it is time for you to let go, you must let go. So you can stand tall and embrace completing your own personal labyrinth.

Do what Sarah  did when she remembered who she was and her purpose for being here she began to toss off any and everything that was distracting her from completing the Labyrinth and saving her brother Toby. Is there anything in your life trying to bog you down anything that makes you feel heavy. I dare you to toss it off and run towards the future. Don’t become a haggard old lady who can’t even stand tall but is slumped over by the trash she refuses to let go of. Cast your cares and the weight of this world upon him for his yoke is easy and his burden is light.

Twin-Flames: The Purpose of Your Twin

I’m here to give my perspective on “love” and the twin-flame. After much debate and utter inner turmoil through personal experience, I have concluded that the twin-flames have total freedom to be whoever or whatever they want to be to each other. Here freedom exists, there are no restrictions. The mission is the goal. If you do not know what I mean by mission, I am talking about the divine work that must be done by the twins in order to fulfill their divine given purpose for being here. In order to explain things clearly, I will at times use analogy’s or parables.

Having said that, I want to dive in real quick to the wonderful world of twin-flame sex. First, let me say that sex is not taboo. Sex is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to having it with your twin. I think the chemistry and sex is the carrot dangled in front of us to get us on our way down the path to self. It acts as the vehicle through which comes healing, deep self knowing and acceptance. Twin-flames sex is opening and freeing for both twins. Why? It is the ultimate expression of ones self. We often do things with our twin that we wouldn’t dream of doing elsewhere or with anyone else. Why? It is us in communication with our higher selves. We are connecting to the source through our source. Therefore, we are allowed to get rid of the programming and ego based around sex. We are free to act out things that bring understanding as well as healing and through the act of sex we are able to connect at deep levels not only with our twin but with ourselves. We are able to look at ourselves through another pair of eyes. This does not bring shame or confine our sexual expression but it allows us to completely be ourselves to ourselves. Your twin will know exactly what to do in order to unlock and open parts of you that have always been there but for whatever reason you never dared to explore.

When we first meet our twin it is utter chaos. Why? Most of the time it comes at the craziest time in our lives. We could be in the middle of a karmic or soulmate relationship or just going through a low point in our lives. Most of the time we aren’t looking for our twin and it brings with it all the baggage of self that most be gone through, looked at and dissected in order to emerge as our true selves. Yet with it and under all of that there is total calm.

I hear a lot of twins saying this isn’t like all my other relationships . I don’t feel what I felt for others before I met you. Instead of you using all the relationships prior to meeting your twin-flame to gauge whether or not this is your twin-flame (relationships that were solely built on and in ego), take a second to step back and look at those relationships through the eyes of spirit. Do not compare your twin-flame relationships to those that were forged in ego. There is no comparison. They are from two complete different worlds. One is the world of ego and the other is that of spirit. Twin-flames is about spirit and growing into who you are meant to be. If you choose to accept the twin-flame path. We all have free will and spirit will not force you to participate. It will simply nod its head and leave you right where you are choosing to be. We get mixed up between soul mates and karmics all of which are valid to our human experience and growth but none of those are the ultimate connection to your higher self or self improvement. They are just constructs meant to entrap you not enhance you.
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Can Twin-flames be romantic? Sure, of course they can. If each twin fully accepts and does the inner work, they will see there is no better counter part for them because it releases them from all ego while at the same time launching them into their life purpose. This brings about peace and total fulfillment . The bigger picture is that of coming into full alignment with your higher self. It is the type of relationship that should be and is void of ego and purely spiritual. The connection is mind boggling and takes a minute to get use to. It will mirror you where you are and make you deal with your shit in order to take on the mantle and walk in your purpose. Your twin will fit your life purpose in every way because you two are meant to change society’s view on what Love really is and there are many ways to do this. The foundation of love is friendship. It is written that this is the description of love and I think spirit wants us all to put all of our “love” relationships in this and look hard. If it doesn’t fit this then its not love nor of the spirit but it is solely ego that is operating. This is where spirit wants the twin-flames to be and operate from.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

Meditate upon those words and know if it doesn’t fit you must acquit and call it what it really is….an Egoship not a twinflame relationship.

 

* photo credit: An Autum Afternoon by Eddie Claz

The Call…

My heart is heavy watching this shit in real time. Most don’t even recognize the crime. It’s open hunting season if you are a young black male. They shoot you for no reason if you are staying out of jail. It’s shoot first, ask questions later… shit more people cared about a fucking gator.

The outrage comes from trying to force us to live in a cage, a cage of the mind. But all that does is produce rage or trick us into thinking we are insane. They tell you in 2016 you are free but if you are black it comes with limitations. It’s time for sanctions and reparations! It’s time we take our country back! Yes, everyone knows it was built on the backs of blacks. Our sweat, tears and blood is what made freedom ring. Nothing is new today except the KKK got a new face. When will we wake up and see Master still got our black asses up the creek. Everybody got a slice of the pie except for me. You can’t hold back a man created in the image of G-D, and make him sit in the corner while you pull out your gun. You white washed history but we the people ain’t gonna let you wash our blood away its crying out from the ground everyday it’s time for you to face your crimes. Soon the last shall be first and the judgment will reverse the curse.

STAR Bright

Have you ever known a superstar?

I mean the kind of person that makes everyone stop because they are in awe of them. I’m blessed enough to be the mother of one! The supreme love of my life is my daughter. Being a parent is one of the most serious jobs ever and sometimes we as parents get caught up in everything except the simple joy of the love between a parent and a child. I struggled to get pregnant and had one miscarriage but the child I was blessed with brings me unlimited joy! Sometimes we look for things outside of our family. Things like acceptance, support, encouragement, etc. Then we realize that usually those are the very things only our family can give us unconditionally. My daughter is unwavering in her love, approval and support of me, her mother. She eagerly awaits my new posts and checks daily to make sure I am fulfilling my writing dreams. She is the kind of person that makes dreamers like us believe in miracles, unicorns, fairies and the magic of creating. I am her biggest fan because she is an awesome creator herself. I know one day the world will take in her imagination and beauty as if it is sucking on honey.

This is for you my daughter, my joy! SHINE BRIGHT LIKE THE STAR YOU ARE FOR YOU COME FROM LOVE…

Triumphant Return…

Hello blog world

Long time, no talk.

Boy oh boy, be careful what you ask the “universe” for. I say that in a tongue and cheek kind of way.

But how many of us, on a daily basis, groan and complain and wish we had a different life?
There is nothing wrong with this because I believe it’s our souls way of saying we can do better. However, when we are pursuing that new and different life we often forget that there will be struggles. One cannot uproot themselves without it. I know when we last met I was going on and on about wanting change and boy did I get it! Lol.

The only thing I wasn’t prepared for was the process of change. I was one of those people that had to have all the answers before I stepped out on “faith”. However, the bible I read says that faith is hope in things not seen. Sometimes while operating in faith one isn’t going to have all the answers but they know they cannot stay stuck in what is. I’m sure some of the feelings I have had and those that have taken the journey with me resembled those of Moses. G-D gave clear and precise instructions to Moses to GO SPEAK TO PHARAOH AND LEAD MY PEOPLE TO FREEDOM. It amazes me how many times G-D will reveal his plan in such few words. We, like Moses, began to challenge G-D on all the unseen things that can, will, or should happen. But is that walking by “faith”?
Remember “faith” is hope in things not seen. Yes, our spirit man seems to get the concept and some of us can be seen at home and in places of worship jumping up and down at the idea. But there is a place called purgatory, the waiting place In-between the seen and the unseen. When G-D tells you to GO, He doesn’t always fill in the gaps. He sees the end from the beginning and He is the alpha and the omega. All we are to do is GO in Faith and trust in the things not seen.

How many of us are in the place between the instruction of the begotten promise?

Well I’m here to tell you there’s something else. It’s called resting on and in His promises. We might not have all the answers or what looks like a well laid out plan but when G-D says GO we have a choice. Either we will walk in faith or we will stay behind and wait for the next instruction that only comes after the first step. I wish I had all the answers and could calm everyone’s fears and minds but we have been called out of Egypt and we are marching into our promise land.

Becoming the Big Picture

Day 15

Seeing the big picture becoming the big picture.

By living in my wholeness I am complete. So what exactly is the big picture?

I think it’s finding out that everything you need, you are uniquely equipped with and there is no one else on this planet that can do what you can, how you can. So we should all rest in that knowledge and be comfortable being us.
I know for myself I struggled with this for many years. I was a chameleon. I was able to change my colors for whatever situation life placed me in. But you know what, I wasn’t happy. I was not satisfied with myself or those around me. I found myself longing to find a place where I wouldn’t have to jump through hoops to be excepted, to be loved, or to be liked and appreciated. I found myself longing to take off all the masks and just be me. It was in that moment that my divine light turned on and everything begin to fall into place in my life. I was always afraid people wouldn’t like the real me. Yet the truth was, I didn’t like or know the real me. Some painful events took place in my life and shook me forcing me to get real with myself and others. Then the strangest thing happened. I got everything easy that I had been struggling to get for years. People do like me. People do except me. People do appreciate me and all I did was stop pretending and be my unique self.

Recently, I was speaking with a friend whom I love more than words but I knew boundaries had to be placed in order for our friendship to flourish even more. Have you ever had those friends who just expect you to fix their problems? They expect you to always be there and make them happy but when it’s time to be returned they are no where around. Well I had to get honest with myself. I said, ” self, this is your fault because you have taught this person( this lovely person) that this is how they can and should treat you. Now how are we going to fix this?

Trust me all my old fears came back and were like if you do this you’ll lose this very important relationship and I responded then it’s not a real relationship. I heard if you do this they will be very upset with you. I responded that it is their problem to fix, not mine. If we are really friends, our relationship should survive and thrive with boundaries. Then I heard, they will take away all their love and attention and you will be alone. I responded, “I am never alone because one person decides to leave my life because I’m setting boundaries that help me stay in my truth.” I felt a rush of energy because I knew I had finally past this test. I had real growth and change in my life. I looked fear in its ugly face and I reaffirmed myself as being worthy of all the things I give freely to others. I am no longer living in fear, reacting in fear and for that I am truly grateful.
Oh and if you are worried about what happened with my friend well so far they haven’t responded and I’m okay with that. I only want real healthy relationships in my life. It’s my duty to protect and nurture myself. No one can look out for you better than you can. If you like me were or are stuck in a cycle of crazy relationships you are in control. You can pull the plug anytime you want because everything you need is already within you.

My gift to you today is a song by Madonna Beautiful Scars.


When we love ourselves we are able to stand in our truth loving ourself.

Gratitude expands relationships

Wow, I can’t believe we are almost at the halfway point in this journey.

I hope you are enjoying it as much as I am. How true is it that we all love to be appreciated? We love to be around those that value us, that see what we bring to their lives. People that uplift others in grace and gratitude often are very popular and when we leave their presence we are often left inspired, energized and ready to take on the world again.

However, on the flip side, we all have been around those people that are the total opposite and seem to drain all the life force from us. My circle of friends and family have a name for them…. “Downers.” They just seem to bring everyone around them down. Nothing in their life is ever right and it is rarely their fault. They always have bad news and never seem to get out of a never ending cycle of depression. Recently, I watched Harry Potter and there was a character in there that fit exactly what I’m describing. I know out of the two types of people I have explained I much rather want to be like the first group. When we are grateful for everyone in our lives ( I’m talking about healthy relationships), they seem never ending and easygoing. There’s an ebb and flow of give and take but to us it always feels like giving. Iron sharpens Iron.

I want to encourage those of us that may be in difficult spots in some of our relationships. If the relationship is healthy, I encourage you to breathe gratefulness into it and watch it flourish. If the relationship is toxic, I encourage you to cut ties with that relationship and find others that are healthy and positive.

May the Divine be with you every step of the way, lighting your feet as you go. May you bring light to all you encounter and may you be blessed.