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The Unspoken Dream

This is my sister and I’s tribute to the greatest musician to ever live. There are so many things I could share about how this man touched my life and the life of those closest to me but one of the many lessons I learned from him was sometimes talking too much gets in the way of the art and how people experience it.  I will say my beautiful sister helped me write this after we first met him in 1998 in Vegas. We wanted him to know how much he inspired us and show appreciation for his craftsmanship. Enjoy a funny little story using some of his song titles. “True art like true love never dies” – MayReign

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The Unspoken Dream

When Doves Cry I think of you standing in the Purple Rain. Your skin is Soft and Wet. I truly Adore 

you, more now than When You Were Mine. I can’t understand Why You Wanna Treat Me so Bad,

especially when I Feel For You and yearn for your Kiss. Right now Nothing Compares To You, you

made me so Delirious with your Blue Light that I Would Die 4 You. You were Insatiable and I was

your Hot Thing not your Nasty Girl. But that was during Courtin’ Time. You decided to Sleep

Around and Get Yo Groove On with Darling Nikki. I thought you said that you didn’t want to be

Somebody’s Somebody. I enjoyed reading The Morning Papers with you after you had been Loved

2 The 9’s. Our Love was The Max not Controversy and I thought I was your Sweet Baby and not

just a Curious Child that went with The Flow. You made me Escape to Erotic City for 17 Days. You

Took me to the Continental in your Little Red Corvette and gave me a coat of Pink Cashmere and a

Raspberry Beret. Then we went Uptown to Alphabet St. and you bought me 3 Chains O’ Gold. After

that you showed me off to your Girls and Boys at the Jam Of The Year in the White Mansion. You

whispered in my ear could you be The Most Beautiful Girl In The World, but before I replied you

said SHHH close your eyes. You took me upstairs and gave me One Kiss At A Time and said I

Wanna Melt With You for 7 days and 7 nights. I said Let’s Go Crazy and do it in Style because The

Love We Make is Gold. The Human Body should be treated like a Soul Sanctuary. The next day you

told me that I had to purify myself in The Holy River. Face Down (just like Elvis). We went to see

the Pope who told us about The Plan of a Saviour that would lead us to the New World of

Emancipation. After we left you said Baby I’m A Star and are you One Of Us. I said no, I don’t like

that Pop Life because there is nothing but Thieves In The Temple that want to take your Diamonds

And Pearls. You said Betcha By Golly Wow look at the time I gotta run. I said Damn U and your

Arrogance. Take Me With You to meet The Beautiful Ones in the Computer Blue. Don’t make me

have Another Lonely Christmas. Would it matter If I Was Your Girlfriend? Because I Wanna Be

Your Lover. You said baby don’t Push just keep Strollin’ , and Don’t Talk 2 Strangers. I said okay

Mr. Happy , I Can’t Make You Love Me and we went our separate ways. Now, I Count The Days

until you’ll be Right Back Here In My Arms. In This Bed I Scream because I can’t stop Dreamin’

About U and every night I check My Computer for your Emale. How Come U Don’t Call Me

Anymore? Sometimes I Hate U because I love U, but I can’t love you because I Hate U. I wonder if

you would treat your Friend, Lover, Sister, Mother/ Wife the way you have treated me, but I guess

that’s what I get for having Sex In The Summer on the “balcony” with you. I guess in the end that

Money Don’t Matter 2 Night and maybe next time I’ll use P Control. See you in the Dawn.

Written by N.S. And A.S. In 1998

STAR Bright

Have you ever known a superstar?

I mean the kind of person that makes everyone stop because they are in awe of them. I’m blessed enough to be the mother of one! The supreme love of my life is my daughter. Being a parent is one of the most serious jobs ever and sometimes we as parents get caught up in everything except the simple joy of the love between a parent and a child. I struggled to get pregnant and had one miscarriage but the child I was blessed with brings me unlimited joy! Sometimes we look for things outside of our family. Things like acceptance, support, encouragement, etc. Then we realize that usually those are the very things only our family can give us unconditionally. My daughter is unwavering in her love, approval and support of me, her mother. She eagerly awaits my new posts and checks daily to make sure I am fulfilling my writing dreams. She is the kind of person that makes dreamers like us believe in miracles, unicorns, fairies and the magic of creating. I am her biggest fan because she is an awesome creator herself. I know one day the world will take in her imagination and beauty as if it is sucking on honey.

This is for you my daughter, my joy! SHINE BRIGHT LIKE THE STAR YOU ARE FOR YOU COME FROM LOVE…

Seeing with the Eyes of The Soul

Whew! We made it to the end of this wonderful, magical, and life transforming meditation series. I have really enjoyed doing this daily as a part of my day and I will continue to include these ancient practices into my daily routine.

What is seeing with the eyes of the Soul? I believe it is loving and faith. Sometimes we just have to step out on faith and trust that G-d has our back. No one else can live your life. No one else can write your life’s story. You and only you are in the drivers seat and the directors seat making the choices that sum up your life. I hope I have inspired many of you to try something new and that it was helpful and beneficial to you. I can tell you that my life has been truly transformed. I am no longer settling for the crumbs I can get from others but I am now following the recipe that is uniquely designed for my life.

I will say again when you know who you are, you know your power. I had once given away my most precious gift. I willingly walked blindly along side those who tried to snuff my divine light out because they had little to no light of they’re own. However, when we focus on others that is when our soul eyes close and the ego eyes open. Now that my soul eyes are open and I am seeing the divine light everywhere, it is guiding me to other light holders. I don’t ever want to operate out of my ego again. The ego brings death and destruction but the soul brings light and life. My true self is everything I hold dear. I can’t tell you how wonderful it was to have my mother call me almost in tears because as she put it “everything she had poured into me I am finally bringing forth.”I know how she feels because by changing my life and going after my dreams, I see that spark of light and life in my daughter. We are the examples to the next generation. If we don’t stand up and step out and be the best we can be, how will they? More is observed and learned than is learned from being told. I am a changed woman. No longer afraid to stand up and be counted amount the many numerous women who changed the course of history. I now love myself and am my own best friend. This doesn’t mean that I’m not open to outside relationships but it means I now know my place in those and I can be of greater service because I now know what to say yes to and what to say no to.

I have a gift of a song for you again. It has been an anthem for me and I hope they will be for you as well.

What better way to tell the world. I am G-D’s woman hear me ROAR!!

Path to Total Transformation Day 19

Day 19

The path to total transformation
My inner light is guiding me.
My true self shines with its own light.

Ok immediately I heard in my head, this little light of mine I’m gonna let it shine. Next was, who lights a lamp and places it under a bed? But when the lamp is lit you place it in a high place in order for the light to shine.

How many of us know that it only takes a small speck of light to cast out darkness? I know this first hand because my smart phone flash light is small but bright in the night.
Have you ever been in a place so dark that even if you have a flash light it only lights up a few steps ahead? Well I’m coming out of that place. The sun is rising and I can see the path ahead clearly thanks to the light of the sun. There are so many light references out there, it’s funny.
Like a moth to a flame.
Why is it that everything on this planet is drawn to light? Is there a secret life giving force we get from light that our conscious mind doesn’t pick up but our subconscious mind does? There is something magical about light. Light can transform darkness.

After every storm, there is a rainbow which is formed by light. There are many colors in the rainbow and maybe just maybe you are the rainbow to someone else’s storm. Let us not be afraid to let our lights shine and lets do everything we can to keep them shining brighter and brighter!

Day 16 Hidden Secret of Being

Day 16

The hidden secret of being.
Everyday my being seeks ways to expand itself.

Take a moment and think, what would you do if you had no limits? What type of limits are holding you back?

Then challenge yourself to see if they are really limits or are they just excuses.

For me, many of my “limits” we’re just excuses. As I have said I’m done living in fear. This is the only life I’ve got and I’m going to live it to the fullest. The secret of the universe is there are no limitations except the ones you place on yourself. Think about that.
I will say it again.
The secret of the universe is there are no limitations only the ones you place on yourself. As the Bible says, “you have not because you ask not.” Now some of you might be thinking but I pray for this everyday or I have asked for it and list off things. But the truth is the universe doesn’t listen to our words but to our hearts. I am learning this. The moment I shifted to gratitude, I found freedom and unlimited favor. I have no limits except the ones I place on myself.
I hope you readers really get what I am saying to you. We all have no limits. So what are you waiting for? What is blocking you? What is stoping you? The universe is like a universal womb. Everything we need we already have. Mr. Chopra says when you are free, you won’t recognize past self. That is becoming truer and truer for me everyday. I feel compassion for the woman I was: the one to afraid to try, the one bound to others limits and expectations, taking them upon myself as my own. No longer am I living by the rules set in place by those who wish to control us. I have stepped into the matrix, where the impossible is possible and all I had to do was change my mind.

Becoming the Big Picture

Day 15

Seeing the big picture becoming the big picture.

By living in my wholeness I am complete. So what exactly is the big picture?

I think it’s finding out that everything you need, you are uniquely equipped with and there is no one else on this planet that can do what you can, how you can. So we should all rest in that knowledge and be comfortable being us.
I know for myself I struggled with this for many years. I was a chameleon. I was able to change my colors for whatever situation life placed me in. But you know what, I wasn’t happy. I was not satisfied with myself or those around me. I found myself longing to find a place where I wouldn’t have to jump through hoops to be excepted, to be loved, or to be liked and appreciated. I found myself longing to take off all the masks and just be me. It was in that moment that my divine light turned on and everything begin to fall into place in my life. I was always afraid people wouldn’t like the real me. Yet the truth was, I didn’t like or know the real me. Some painful events took place in my life and shook me forcing me to get real with myself and others. Then the strangest thing happened. I got everything easy that I had been struggling to get for years. People do like me. People do except me. People do appreciate me and all I did was stop pretending and be my unique self.

Recently, I was speaking with a friend whom I love more than words but I knew boundaries had to be placed in order for our friendship to flourish even more. Have you ever had those friends who just expect you to fix their problems? They expect you to always be there and make them happy but when it’s time to be returned they are no where around. Well I had to get honest with myself. I said, ” self, this is your fault because you have taught this person( this lovely person) that this is how they can and should treat you. Now how are we going to fix this?

Trust me all my old fears came back and were like if you do this you’ll lose this very important relationship and I responded then it’s not a real relationship. I heard if you do this they will be very upset with you. I responded that it is their problem to fix, not mine. If we are really friends, our relationship should survive and thrive with boundaries. Then I heard, they will take away all their love and attention and you will be alone. I responded, “I am never alone because one person decides to leave my life because I’m setting boundaries that help me stay in my truth.” I felt a rush of energy because I knew I had finally past this test. I had real growth and change in my life. I looked fear in its ugly face and I reaffirmed myself as being worthy of all the things I give freely to others. I am no longer living in fear, reacting in fear and for that I am truly grateful.
Oh and if you are worried about what happened with my friend well so far they haven’t responded and I’m okay with that. I only want real healthy relationships in my life. It’s my duty to protect and nurture myself. No one can look out for you better than you can. If you like me were or are stuck in a cycle of crazy relationships you are in control. You can pull the plug anytime you want because everything you need is already within you.

My gift to you today is a song by Madonna Beautiful Scars.


When we love ourselves we are able to stand in our truth loving ourself.

Loving with Gratitude

Love is the truest sign of grace. My truest essence is divine love. In the bible it says, ” we love because first he loved us.”

Sigh!

Love is the most powerful force in our human experience. As of late I’ve been down in the dumps behind love. Who doesn’t experience this? There are many types of love in this world and most of us choose to focus on only romantic love. I’m super guilty of this.

Why limit ourselves to only that type of love?

This meditation is showing me there are many avenues to take and experience in this life. I think the first step to experiencing mind blowing love is to be open to all of its possible forms and be thankful for them. Many of us waste time whining over people who just aren’t worth our time. I love this saying, ” don’t make someone your priority when they make you an option. ” This is true in all relationships. If you are anything like me, you get swept away in love. Love just feels so good. In my core, I am a loving person. I want to give everyone everything right off the bat but I only end up hurt and rejected. As I grow, I am learning to taper my love. It’s ok to love others but we all must love ourselves first. When you love yourself, you are good to yourself. You don’t let yourself settle for any type of treatment because you know your worth. For me, this is the truth about divine love. It is always there so there is no reason to go searching for it.

Maybe you have closed your eyes to the vessels of love around you now. Maybe you are like me and afraid to let others love you because of past hurts. Maybe you are afraid to love because of hurt. But why do we limit ourselves to the greatest human experience this side of heaven?

I could go on and on about love but perfect love cast out fear and love covers a multitude of sins. Love keeps no records of wrongs. Love is patient. Love is kind. Love seeks out the good for all. Isn’t that the meaning of grace? I already have mind blowing love in my life and the best kept secret is its me loving me as G-d loves me. We can not fully experience love until we fully love ourselves, crooks and all.

Let us open ourselves up to love because we are worthy of it in all its forms! Love cast out all fear. Fear vibrates in the lower levels, it’s ways are ugly and bring destruction. This is something I am learning to do… I stop and ask myself often, ” is this(whatever it is) coming from my love tank or my fear tank.?” Just doing this has redirected my life because I am able to slow down and not react in fear but act in and out of love.

Day 8 Gratitude leads to health

Our brains change when we change our thoughts. Could the sages have gotten it right about health? I know I feel something changing in me. I am no longer in a constant state of “funk, ” and I feel like I can see things in my life clearer and better. I feel good after every meditation. As you know, I missed doing my morning routine and I was able to connect why I was having a hard time. So I have made it a goal to get up earlier and do the things I know are going to lead to success in my life. Many wonderful things are starting to happen. I know that systematically my life is changing. The most joyful and awesome thought is all I had to do was change my mind. Our bodies are powerful! It says in Jeremiah that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. However, if we don’t tap into that awesome unending resource, we are not living life more abundantly. If my Messiah died to give me life more abundantly but I fail to recognize the simple gifts, and I fail to attain the simple spiritual disciplines I am the one missing out! I don’t want to miss out on anything in this life! So by now you’ve probably figured out I like to challenge my readers. What do you need to change your mind about? What in your mind is holding you back from living life abundantly? Could it be the negative patterns we’ve adapted to our brains. Well it’s time to change our stinking thinking. Try to think at least three positive thoughts about any negative thing in your life that you want to see change in and let’s see those mountains began to move! I need you as much as you need me. Thank you for all the likes and positive comments. It is encouraging me to keep going. Let’s keep going together, marching in gratitude and receiving our daily grace.

Day 6 Gratitude is in the present.

By now, I’m sure you have all heard the old saying ” what type of time is a gift? ” The answer is the Present.

But how many of us actually think of what is happening right now this very moment as a gift?

I know I personally struggle with this concept. Either I am stuck in my memories or caught up in my dreams. However, I instinctively know if I only could be present in the present, things could change? I have really been trying to accomplish this when meditating. It’s not a discipline that is learned overnight but it’s something that comes with patience and persistence.

I am really enjoying this meditation series because for me it is causing me to be more and more present in the right now moments. The present is for us because if we are fully in the right now moments we will experience connection, which will bring about more thankfulness and Grace. All of these things enrich our human experience helping us to relax, be more authentic and just go with the flow. Life can be full of challenges but if we are fully present and aware of ourselves we might be able to bend instead of break and flow instead of getting stuck. I remember my sister gave me a wonderful piece of wisdom that I would like to pass on because I feel it applies. She told me that I needed to become aware of the seasons of my life and once I connected with the season I was in I would know how to act. I believe that advice was straight from the Divine because when it is winter we are to be fully present in resting , in spring we plant, in summer we harvest, and in fall we prepare for winter.

How awful is it when we as humans are in our summer season but we treat it as if it is winter? Being present is a gift to us and those around us. When we are aware, every door is open and our senses are heightened.

I challenge you to began to evaluate your life and ask yourself “What season am I in?” Once you figure that out began to be thankful for it and act accordingly.

Oprah’s and Chopra’s Meditation Experience Day 1

https: //chopracentermeditation.com/
This link popped up in my twitter feed right as my thoughts were muddling around about nothing positive.

I took it as a sign and in faith I signed up.

I am a deep believer in meditating. When I meditate, I discover unspeakable peace, answers I never thought possible and above all it is deeply relaxing. Meditation is for everyone. No matter what religious background you may have, we all can benefit from slowing down each day and taking time out to listen to what is really important.

Today’s meditation theme was Gratitude. This theme resonates deeply with me. I am so full of joy and gratitude.
Although my life isn’t perfect, it is perfectly right now.

I wanted to share this experience with my readers and challenge all of us to take this journey together.

We all are here, right now, at one of the most confusing times in our world. There is so much going on to be worried over, but what if this time we don’t fall for it? What if, this time instead of giving into the negative emotions, we let ourselves radiate the light of Gratitude. Many of us never take the time to slow down and be thankful for what we have. I’m super guilty of this. I am always rushing to finish my next blog post or chapter in my novel. I consider myself a spiritual person and I feel our spirit is calling for a time out, a time to reflect on all that we have and just be thankful.

Here is the link to this shared experience https://chopracentermeditation.com/

When I got to this page the first thing that jumped out to me was “Do you feel like you’re constantly waiting for your “real” life to begin?” The answer for me is yes ! I am in the process of changing my life. I’m normally not one for tooting my own horn but I am filled with Gratitude that I had the courage and faith to step out and start this blog. No major changes have occurred in my life yet except the pleasure of knowing I’m no longer just dreaming about writing but I am finally doing it. One of the many things I am grateful for is all the followers I have and all the likes that I get. You have no idea what that does for me. Some of the best gifts we can give ourselves and to others are free. Here, I offer you, my readers a gift such as that.

Click this link https://chopracentermeditation.com/ sign up and let’s change our lives together.

Who knows where we will end up…..at least we will be more relaxed, filled with gratitude and on our way to new exciting chapters in our lives!