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The Unspoken Dream

This is my sister and I’s tribute to the greatest musician to ever live. There are so many things I could share about how this man touched my life and the life of those closest to me but one of the many lessons I learned from him was sometimes talking too much gets in the way of the art and how people experience it.  I will say my beautiful sister helped me write this after we first met him in 1998 in Vegas. We wanted him to know how much he inspired us and show appreciation for his craftsmanship. Enjoy a funny little story using some of his song titles. “True art like true love never dies” – MayReign

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The Unspoken Dream

When Doves Cry I think of you standing in the Purple Rain. Your skin is Soft and Wet. I truly Adore 

you, more now than When You Were Mine. I can’t understand Why You Wanna Treat Me so Bad,

especially when I Feel For You and yearn for your Kiss. Right now Nothing Compares To You, you

made me so Delirious with your Blue Light that I Would Die 4 You. You were Insatiable and I was

your Hot Thing not your Nasty Girl. But that was during Courtin’ Time. You decided to Sleep

Around and Get Yo Groove On with Darling Nikki. I thought you said that you didn’t want to be

Somebody’s Somebody. I enjoyed reading The Morning Papers with you after you had been Loved

2 The 9’s. Our Love was The Max not Controversy and I thought I was your Sweet Baby and not

just a Curious Child that went with The Flow. You made me Escape to Erotic City for 17 Days. You

Took me to the Continental in your Little Red Corvette and gave me a coat of Pink Cashmere and a

Raspberry Beret. Then we went Uptown to Alphabet St. and you bought me 3 Chains O’ Gold. After

that you showed me off to your Girls and Boys at the Jam Of The Year in the White Mansion. You

whispered in my ear could you be The Most Beautiful Girl In The World, but before I replied you

said SHHH close your eyes. You took me upstairs and gave me One Kiss At A Time and said I

Wanna Melt With You for 7 days and 7 nights. I said Let’s Go Crazy and do it in Style because The

Love We Make is Gold. The Human Body should be treated like a Soul Sanctuary. The next day you

told me that I had to purify myself in The Holy River. Face Down (just like Elvis). We went to see

the Pope who told us about The Plan of a Saviour that would lead us to the New World of

Emancipation. After we left you said Baby I’m A Star and are you One Of Us. I said no, I don’t like

that Pop Life because there is nothing but Thieves In The Temple that want to take your Diamonds

And Pearls. You said Betcha By Golly Wow look at the time I gotta run. I said Damn U and your

Arrogance. Take Me With You to meet The Beautiful Ones in the Computer Blue. Don’t make me

have Another Lonely Christmas. Would it matter If I Was Your Girlfriend? Because I Wanna Be

Your Lover. You said baby don’t Push just keep Strollin’ , and Don’t Talk 2 Strangers. I said okay

Mr. Happy , I Can’t Make You Love Me and we went our separate ways. Now, I Count The Days

until you’ll be Right Back Here In My Arms. In This Bed I Scream because I can’t stop Dreamin’

About U and every night I check My Computer for your Emale. How Come U Don’t Call Me

Anymore? Sometimes I Hate U because I love U, but I can’t love you because I Hate U. I wonder if

you would treat your Friend, Lover, Sister, Mother/ Wife the way you have treated me, but I guess

that’s what I get for having Sex In The Summer on the “balcony” with you. I guess in the end that

Money Don’t Matter 2 Night and maybe next time I’ll use P Control. See you in the Dawn.

Written by N.S. And A.S. In 1998

STAR Bright

Have you ever known a superstar?

I mean the kind of person that makes everyone stop because they are in awe of them. I’m blessed enough to be the mother of one! The supreme love of my life is my daughter. Being a parent is one of the most serious jobs ever and sometimes we as parents get caught up in everything except the simple joy of the love between a parent and a child. I struggled to get pregnant and had one miscarriage but the child I was blessed with brings me unlimited joy! Sometimes we look for things outside of our family. Things like acceptance, support, encouragement, etc. Then we realize that usually those are the very things only our family can give us unconditionally. My daughter is unwavering in her love, approval and support of me, her mother. She eagerly awaits my new posts and checks daily to make sure I am fulfilling my writing dreams. She is the kind of person that makes dreamers like us believe in miracles, unicorns, fairies and the magic of creating. I am her biggest fan because she is an awesome creator herself. I know one day the world will take in her imagination and beauty as if it is sucking on honey.

This is for you my daughter, my joy! SHINE BRIGHT LIKE THE STAR YOU ARE FOR YOU COME FROM LOVE…

What If???

Recently, due to the major shifts and changes taking place in my life, I began to let that old familiar voice creep back into my head. My old frenemy, What If!

Oh how many halls of doubt and fear what if brings into my mind. Until my reprogrammed renewed mind sets in. Then there it was: What if love… What if success…What if true happiness and meaning.
I think I have said this before but the old me was probably the most scared person ever. She was a person that lived in technicolor what if and watched life pass her by. But when the ground is shook beneath your feet and you have no time to think but just act that is where you begin to build your muscle of trust. Life is a series of choices and once made one most be confident in that choice. But also one must be confident enough to change course and start down a whole new path if that choice does not work out.
Turn that old frenemy into an old friend! What if (something positive)! Insert positive thoughts because we are co-creators of our lives.
What if you are missing out on your biggest adventure YOUR LIFE!!

Triumphant Return…

Hello blog world

Long time, no talk.

Boy oh boy, be careful what you ask the “universe” for. I say that in a tongue and cheek kind of way.

But how many of us, on a daily basis, groan and complain and wish we had a different life?
There is nothing wrong with this because I believe it’s our souls way of saying we can do better. However, when we are pursuing that new and different life we often forget that there will be struggles. One cannot uproot themselves without it. I know when we last met I was going on and on about wanting change and boy did I get it! Lol.

The only thing I wasn’t prepared for was the process of change. I was one of those people that had to have all the answers before I stepped out on “faith”. However, the bible I read says that faith is hope in things not seen. Sometimes while operating in faith one isn’t going to have all the answers but they know they cannot stay stuck in what is. I’m sure some of the feelings I have had and those that have taken the journey with me resembled those of Moses. G-D gave clear and precise instructions to Moses to GO SPEAK TO PHARAOH AND LEAD MY PEOPLE TO FREEDOM. It amazes me how many times G-D will reveal his plan in such few words. We, like Moses, began to challenge G-D on all the unseen things that can, will, or should happen. But is that walking by “faith”?
Remember “faith” is hope in things not seen. Yes, our spirit man seems to get the concept and some of us can be seen at home and in places of worship jumping up and down at the idea. But there is a place called purgatory, the waiting place In-between the seen and the unseen. When G-D tells you to GO, He doesn’t always fill in the gaps. He sees the end from the beginning and He is the alpha and the omega. All we are to do is GO in Faith and trust in the things not seen.

How many of us are in the place between the instruction of the begotten promise?

Well I’m here to tell you there’s something else. It’s called resting on and in His promises. We might not have all the answers or what looks like a well laid out plan but when G-D says GO we have a choice. Either we will walk in faith or we will stay behind and wait for the next instruction that only comes after the first step. I wish I had all the answers and could calm everyone’s fears and minds but we have been called out of Egypt and we are marching into our promise land.

Seeing with the Eyes of The Soul

Whew! We made it to the end of this wonderful, magical, and life transforming meditation series. I have really enjoyed doing this daily as a part of my day and I will continue to include these ancient practices into my daily routine.

What is seeing with the eyes of the Soul? I believe it is loving and faith. Sometimes we just have to step out on faith and trust that G-d has our back. No one else can live your life. No one else can write your life’s story. You and only you are in the drivers seat and the directors seat making the choices that sum up your life. I hope I have inspired many of you to try something new and that it was helpful and beneficial to you. I can tell you that my life has been truly transformed. I am no longer settling for the crumbs I can get from others but I am now following the recipe that is uniquely designed for my life.

I will say again when you know who you are, you know your power. I had once given away my most precious gift. I willingly walked blindly along side those who tried to snuff my divine light out because they had little to no light of they’re own. However, when we focus on others that is when our soul eyes close and the ego eyes open. Now that my soul eyes are open and I am seeing the divine light everywhere, it is guiding me to other light holders. I don’t ever want to operate out of my ego again. The ego brings death and destruction but the soul brings light and life. My true self is everything I hold dear. I can’t tell you how wonderful it was to have my mother call me almost in tears because as she put it “everything she had poured into me I am finally bringing forth.”I know how she feels because by changing my life and going after my dreams, I see that spark of light and life in my daughter. We are the examples to the next generation. If we don’t stand up and step out and be the best we can be, how will they? More is observed and learned than is learned from being told. I am a changed woman. No longer afraid to stand up and be counted amount the many numerous women who changed the course of history. I now love myself and am my own best friend. This doesn’t mean that I’m not open to outside relationships but it means I now know my place in those and I can be of greater service because I now know what to say yes to and what to say no to.

I have a gift of a song for you again. It has been an anthem for me and I hope they will be for you as well.

What better way to tell the world. I am G-D’s woman hear me ROAR!!

Path to Total Transformation Day 19

Day 19

The path to total transformation
My inner light is guiding me.
My true self shines with its own light.

Ok immediately I heard in my head, this little light of mine I’m gonna let it shine. Next was, who lights a lamp and places it under a bed? But when the lamp is lit you place it in a high place in order for the light to shine.

How many of us know that it only takes a small speck of light to cast out darkness? I know this first hand because my smart phone flash light is small but bright in the night.
Have you ever been in a place so dark that even if you have a flash light it only lights up a few steps ahead? Well I’m coming out of that place. The sun is rising and I can see the path ahead clearly thanks to the light of the sun. There are so many light references out there, it’s funny.
Like a moth to a flame.
Why is it that everything on this planet is drawn to light? Is there a secret life giving force we get from light that our conscious mind doesn’t pick up but our subconscious mind does? There is something magical about light. Light can transform darkness.

After every storm, there is a rainbow which is formed by light. There are many colors in the rainbow and maybe just maybe you are the rainbow to someone else’s storm. Let us not be afraid to let our lights shine and lets do everything we can to keep them shining brighter and brighter!

Rewards of Higher Self…Day 18

The rewards of the higher self.

Have you even met your higher self? The one who isn’t stuck in fear or other negative thought cycles. The one that you were as a child. So many dreams and no thought of why you couldn’t do this or that.

Well if you haven’t met or you are in need of a reconciliation let me help you. The good news is your higher self is with you all the time. When we operate out of our higher self, we can move mountains, and we can jump over hills. This journey has been about you and me this whole time. We are the ones with the power to audit ourselves and make changes.

I have another confession to make. At the beginning of this little experiment I was so stuck in negative thinking and negative environment that I didn’t have the faith to believe this could be life changing. Or did I? I believe my higher self had faith for both the higher and lower me. I did the one thing many people are afraid to do. I took the first step to acknowledging I didn’t like my life. Then I took the next step to do something, anything to change it!

For many years, due to a bad relationship, I felt my power had been taken away. I had bought the lie that my life as it was couldn’t change. I was getting all the signals that I wasn’t happy however I wasn’t brave enough to try. Until I got shaken and challenged. I feel like my child self again. Even though my life isn’t perfect, I have this unspeakable joy and outlook that just around the corner is everything I want and you know what I’m starting to attract it! All the negative parts are coming to an end and my heart, head and soul have opened to notice and receive the good that is easily flowing in. When we stand in our power, it doesn’t frighten nor intimidate others who are also standing in their power. Like begets like. It’s as easy as 1-2-3, focus on being grateful and letting go. Don’t hold onto lower self energy because it brings blocks and causes the flow to stop. Think of the flow as a river. When a river bed gets full of rocks, it stops the flow to the lower parts of the river causing things to get messy. But when there are no blocks in the river, the river is constantly reinventing itself as a new river. The river has its own filter system in place by moving the water. Everything that is yucky gets pushed to the sides and all that is good flows freely down the middle. That is how I want my life to be and yours. I wish this feeling upon every one of my readers.

Again I’m so thankful to have you following my blog. You don’t know it but you are participants in the Divine’s plan for helping me overcome fear and just do it. You being here is an active prophesy being revealed one step at a time. It’s all because we are standing in our truths and full power.

Grace is Perfect Day 17

 Grace is perfect even when my life isn’t. Ok, so for the first time I almost didn’t want to add anything to the statement because it’s perfect the way it is. How amazing is it that we can live in a constant state of grace. The world becomes more vibrant, and more beautiful. Like a heart you can feel it’s beating and you join in the never ending cycle of ebbs and flow. You began to let things go because they don’t really matter to the bigger picture. Once you claim who you are you stop fighting with others about who you aren’t. To tell you the truth, you stop fighting with them about who you are as well. It doesn’t matter if other people don’t get you or seek to do harm towards you because you are stuck in the bubble of grace. Grace doesn’t mean we bow down and pretend to see the world for what it isn’t but it does mean we except it for what it is. We began to do our part to make it a better place. We can easily handle all the things life throws at us and not interrupt the flow of trust by being authentic and taking responsibility for all of our decisions.

I will say it again, you are the author of your life. So what stories are we writing? Does your life book need a rewrite? If it does may I suggest Grace.

Day 16 Hidden Secret of Being

Day 16

The hidden secret of being.
Everyday my being seeks ways to expand itself.

Take a moment and think, what would you do if you had no limits? What type of limits are holding you back?

Then challenge yourself to see if they are really limits or are they just excuses.

For me, many of my “limits” we’re just excuses. As I have said I’m done living in fear. This is the only life I’ve got and I’m going to live it to the fullest. The secret of the universe is there are no limitations except the ones you place on yourself. Think about that.
I will say it again.
The secret of the universe is there are no limitations only the ones you place on yourself. As the Bible says, “you have not because you ask not.” Now some of you might be thinking but I pray for this everyday or I have asked for it and list off things. But the truth is the universe doesn’t listen to our words but to our hearts. I am learning this. The moment I shifted to gratitude, I found freedom and unlimited favor. I have no limits except the ones I place on myself.
I hope you readers really get what I am saying to you. We all have no limits. So what are you waiting for? What is blocking you? What is stoping you? The universe is like a universal womb. Everything we need we already have. Mr. Chopra says when you are free, you won’t recognize past self. That is becoming truer and truer for me everyday. I feel compassion for the woman I was: the one to afraid to try, the one bound to others limits and expectations, taking them upon myself as my own. No longer am I living by the rules set in place by those who wish to control us. I have stepped into the matrix, where the impossible is possible and all I had to do was change my mind.

Becoming the Big Picture

Day 15

Seeing the big picture becoming the big picture.

By living in my wholeness I am complete. So what exactly is the big picture?

I think it’s finding out that everything you need, you are uniquely equipped with and there is no one else on this planet that can do what you can, how you can. So we should all rest in that knowledge and be comfortable being us.
I know for myself I struggled with this for many years. I was a chameleon. I was able to change my colors for whatever situation life placed me in. But you know what, I wasn’t happy. I was not satisfied with myself or those around me. I found myself longing to find a place where I wouldn’t have to jump through hoops to be excepted, to be loved, or to be liked and appreciated. I found myself longing to take off all the masks and just be me. It was in that moment that my divine light turned on and everything begin to fall into place in my life. I was always afraid people wouldn’t like the real me. Yet the truth was, I didn’t like or know the real me. Some painful events took place in my life and shook me forcing me to get real with myself and others. Then the strangest thing happened. I got everything easy that I had been struggling to get for years. People do like me. People do except me. People do appreciate me and all I did was stop pretending and be my unique self.

Recently, I was speaking with a friend whom I love more than words but I knew boundaries had to be placed in order for our friendship to flourish even more. Have you ever had those friends who just expect you to fix their problems? They expect you to always be there and make them happy but when it’s time to be returned they are no where around. Well I had to get honest with myself. I said, ” self, this is your fault because you have taught this person( this lovely person) that this is how they can and should treat you. Now how are we going to fix this?

Trust me all my old fears came back and were like if you do this you’ll lose this very important relationship and I responded then it’s not a real relationship. I heard if you do this they will be very upset with you. I responded that it is their problem to fix, not mine. If we are really friends, our relationship should survive and thrive with boundaries. Then I heard, they will take away all their love and attention and you will be alone. I responded, “I am never alone because one person decides to leave my life because I’m setting boundaries that help me stay in my truth.” I felt a rush of energy because I knew I had finally past this test. I had real growth and change in my life. I looked fear in its ugly face and I reaffirmed myself as being worthy of all the things I give freely to others. I am no longer living in fear, reacting in fear and for that I am truly grateful.
Oh and if you are worried about what happened with my friend well so far they haven’t responded and I’m okay with that. I only want real healthy relationships in my life. It’s my duty to protect and nurture myself. No one can look out for you better than you can. If you like me were or are stuck in a cycle of crazy relationships you are in control. You can pull the plug anytime you want because everything you need is already within you.

My gift to you today is a song by Madonna Beautiful Scars.


When we love ourselves we are able to stand in our truth loving ourself.