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How many of us want to admit we are fucked up and damaged? I mean, who walks around with that sign on their back? But guess what, that’s exactly what we need in order to heal. We need to look at our individual areas where we aren’t as pretty as we thought or want others to believe we are. Why? Because of the beauty that comes out of those places:the growth,the tapping into self, the embracing of self, and the freeing of self.

It reveals to us who is in our lives for just us, all of us:the messy,the glory, and the blahs. Recently, I saw a movie with my daughter based on a book. In the movie, one of the characters gave the lead character the gift of her faults. It wasn’t until she was deep in her dark night of the soul that she was able to defeat that darkest part of herself by facing her ugly side which was actually her beauty.
Love isn’t about the flowers, and it’s not about the highs. It’s about who is there when it stinks helping you to get back up and hold that mirror up to you showing you that yup your shit stinks but guess what I’m here because mine does too. May we all will be lucky enough to encounter those that accept us at our worst so we can grow into our best selves.


The Cursed Fig Tree

There is a story of a fig tree in the sacred texts. It is written that the son Yeshua was hungry and came upon a fig tree. He asked the tree to provide fruit to feed him. The tree refused to bear any fruit. On the outside, it looked like any other tree. But on the inside, it was dead. Yeshua cursed the tree so that it’s outside would match it’s inside. How many of us are walking around not bearing any fruit? We are walking around like the living dead, just taking up space not bearing any fruit.  What are the fruits we should bear? If you read the sacred text it says that the fruits of the spirit are love, joy, peace, self – control, goodness, gentleness and faith. When you read this passage you might ask why would He,the son, curse this tree what was the point in doing what he did to the fig tree? Even his disciples at the time were confused about why He would curse this particular tree. Let me give my explanation of why God cursed this tree. I have pointed it out already. It’s simple. God created the tree to bear fruit and instead of it doing what it was created to do it didn’t bear any fruit.

Being hungry is a basic human need. We all have basic needs that God wants us to meet and fill for each other. God created all for a purpose. No one else can do what you are meant to do or be you. God is not a man so he does not lie. When he came upon this fruit bearing tree that wasn’t bearing any fruit he simply called it what it was and made it’s outside match it’s inside condition. It was dead all the way to the roots so he spoke the words to it to make it so. I hear many followers of God say I feel dead inside or my life isn’t bringing any fruit to myself or others. God wants us all to live a life that bears fruit.  I feel it is our job to constantly stay on fire for God.

He never leaves us nor forsakes us but it is us that walk away from him. We are called away by things that bear no fruit in our lives things that deplete us of our God given resources or we choose to eat of things that are dead that have no life in them and wonder why our lives match the death condition. May I challenge you to look at this fig tree as a symbol for things in your life that are dead. I’m talking the type of dead where it is not bringing any fruit to your life nor are you bringing any to it’s. God isn’t always going to curse them outright he gives the chance to revive them. But something are simply dead and not even God can call fruit out of it.

He cares about our needs he gave them to us and he wants those needs met. Why do we as human beings torture ourselves for having basic human needs? We will grieve over that which is dead. David was wise for when he committed sin with Bathsheba and as we know the end result of sin is death something always dies God told him he was going to lose his son. David didn’t wait to mourn the loss of his son he fasted and asked God to not take the child but once the child had passed he got up washed his face and got back to living. When his servants asked him why do you eat and drink now he replied He is gone nothing I do can or will bring him back. How many of us have this perspective towards death? Some of us grieve way too long over things that have died a long time ago, and us torturing ourselves isn’t going to change the fact that it is dead and nothing is going to bring it back.

Yeshua wasn’t ashamed by his human side and he isnt ashamed by others human side. He created us to be human to experience human things. However, he couldn’t stand when something He created was not being fruitful. He couldn’t stand this fig tree being out in the wilderness for all to see but it wasn’t doing the very thing it had been planted to do provide fruit.

What was it planted to do? It was planted to provide nourishment to those that wish to eat of its fruit. When we are bearing fruit, all benefit. When we are doing what we were created to do, there is fruit and anyone can come and receive nourishment from us. God can and will give you beauty for ashes. He will use the very things that bound you to set others free. He will give you a new song to sing. He will make sure your needs are met. God cares so much about your needs being met that He sent me to tell you it’s ok to have them (needs) but be careful what you feed off of and what feeds off you. Only partake of things that are alive and bearing fruit. If You are in dead situations I challenge you to call them dead and have the courage to walk away and find life situations to bring the life back into you and your walk with God.

photo credit- People Tree , by Pooktre

Letting Go To Embrace

One of my favorite movies is “The Labyrinth.” One of my favorite scenes in “The Labyrinth” is the junk lady scene after Sarah wakes from the dream where she was at the masquerade ball as she awakens it appears she is back at home in her bedroom. All the things she has collected and loved for many years are in that bedroom, all her valued childhood things. Suddenly she sees a older woman who is going through her stuff and literally putting it on herself her back to be more accurate. This old haggard woman is bogged down by the weight she is applying and carrying on her back she can’t stand tall and appears to be proud that her back is bent and occupied by the weight she has put on herself to carry.

The old haggard woman begins to give the young lady things to hold onto. They are her things from the past specifically her childhood her beloved childhood items. However, it feels wrong that she is accepting more gifts from the woman to put on her back she isn’t at peace the very things that use to comfort her now don’t feel right for this moment of her life. Sarah is trying very hard to remember what it is she is missing, what her mission is, where she is and why she is there. More importantly why she doesn’t have peace about being in the midst of her own belongings.  She looks puzzled, afraid and confused looking at this weighed down older woman who is basically a bag lady carrying trash that she calls her treasure as the bag lady begins to offer Sarah more stuff to carry her intent is to distract her from finding her brother Sarah utters a simple word that holds so much power she says no!

The old weighed down bag lady acts like she doesn’t hear her she keeps telling her here dear you love this remember you love this and she tries to start putting items on Sarah’s back so Sarah can become like her a bag lady. As Sarah comes to herself she immediately starts tossing down all her beloved items because in that moment she remembers who she is and why she is there she has a mission to complete. She must save her brother and complete the labyrinth in order to find herself. Sarah doesn’t realize in this moment of turning away from the very things that are holding her back and trying to weigh her down and distract her the very act of her uttering a simple word NO! She has reclaimed her power and her position. She is no longer allowing her circumstances to dictate her outcome. She has now become the master of the Labyrinth by saying no.

What have you been holding onto for way too long that is bring the weight upon your back? Do you think you need to let it go? You might love it or it may have fit in your life at one point  it may even bring you great comfort,and it may be something that you couldn’t ever see yourself putting down or walking away from. However, now might be the time where you need to start saying no to the things that are making you slump over as you walk it is time for you to let go, you must let go. So you can stand tall and embrace completing your own personal labyrinth.

Do what Sarah  did when she remembered who she was and her purpose for being here she began to toss off any and everything that was distracting her from completing the Labyrinth and saving her brother Toby. Is there anything in your life trying to bog you down anything that makes you feel heavy. I dare you to toss it off and run towards the future. Don’t become a haggard old lady who can’t even stand tall but is slumped over by the trash she refuses to let go of. Cast your cares and the weight of this world upon him for his yoke is easy and his burden is light.

Twin-Flames: The Purpose of Your Twin

I’m here to give my perspective on “love” and the twin-flame. After much debate and utter inner turmoil through personal experience, I have concluded that the twin-flames have total freedom to be whoever or whatever they want to be to each other. Here freedom exists, there are no restrictions. The mission is the goal. If you do not know what I mean by mission, I am talking about the divine work that must be done by the twins in order to fulfill their divine given purpose for being here. In order to explain things clearly, I will at times use analogy’s or parables.

Having said that, I want to dive in real quick to the wonderful world of twin-flame sex. First, let me say that sex is not taboo. Sex is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to having it with your twin. I think the chemistry and sex is the carrot dangled in front of us to get us on our way down the path to self. It acts as the vehicle through which comes healing, deep self knowing and acceptance. Twin-flames sex is opening and freeing for both twins. Why? It is the ultimate expression of ones self. We often do things with our twin that we wouldn’t dream of doing elsewhere or with anyone else. Why? It is us in communication with our higher selves. We are connecting to the source through our source. Therefore, we are allowed to get rid of the programming and ego based around sex. We are free to act out things that bring understanding as well as healing and through the act of sex we are able to connect at deep levels not only with our twin but with ourselves. We are able to look at ourselves through another pair of eyes. This does not bring shame or confine our sexual expression but it allows us to completely be ourselves to ourselves. Your twin will know exactly what to do in order to unlock and open parts of you that have always been there but for whatever reason you never dared to explore.

When we first meet our twin it is utter chaos. Why? Most of the time it comes at the craziest time in our lives. We could be in the middle of a karmic or soulmate relationship or just going through a low point in our lives. Most of the time we aren’t looking for our twin and it brings with it all the baggage of self that most be gone through, looked at and dissected in order to emerge as our true selves. Yet with it and under all of that there is total calm.

I hear a lot of twins saying this isn’t like all my other relationships . I don’t feel what I felt for others before I met you. Instead of you using all the relationships prior to meeting your twin-flame to gauge whether or not this is your twin-flame (relationships that were solely built on and in ego), take a second to step back and look at those relationships through the eyes of spirit. Do not compare your twin-flame relationships to those that were forged in ego. There is no comparison. They are from two complete different worlds. One is the world of ego and the other is that of spirit. Twin-flames is about spirit and growing into who you are meant to be. If you choose to accept the twin-flame path. We all have free will and spirit will not force you to participate. It will simply nod its head and leave you right where you are choosing to be. We get mixed up between soul mates and karmics all of which are valid to our human experience and growth but none of those are the ultimate connection to your higher self or self improvement. They are just constructs meant to entrap you not enhance you.

Can Twin-flames be romantic? Sure, of course they can. If each twin fully accepts and does the inner work, they will see there is no better counter part for them because it releases them from all ego while at the same time launching them into their life purpose. This brings about peace and total fulfillment . The bigger picture is that of coming into full alignment with your higher self. It is the type of relationship that should be and is void of ego and purely spiritual. The connection is mind boggling and takes a minute to get use to. It will mirror you where you are and make you deal with your shit in order to take on the mantle and walk in your purpose. Your twin will fit your life purpose in every way because you two are meant to change society’s view on what Love really is and there are many ways to do this. The foundation of love is friendship. It is written that this is the description of love and I think spirit wants us all to put all of our “love” relationships in this and look hard. If it doesn’t fit this then its not love nor of the spirit but it is solely ego that is operating. This is where spirit wants the twin-flames to be and operate from.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

Meditate upon those words and know if it doesn’t fit you must acquit and call it what it really is….an Egoship not a twinflame relationship.


* photo credit: An Autum Afternoon by Eddie Claz

Rise of the Divine Feminine


Who am I? I am a voice calling out in the wilderness. I am the voice of the Divine Feminine, the one that is going through this confusing journey of self love. I went through the looking glass last year. It was a fun house type experience, the place of the dark night of the soul. The place where up is down and down is up. The place where one can no longer run from the truth of self. I speak my truth as a Divine Feminine and offer wisdom on how to navigate this walk.
So where do I begin…I guess how my twin and I met. We met about two years ago and it was one of those things where for me at least when I saw him I knew this was gonna be trouble. I was with someone at the time who I thought would be my life partner. I like all Divine Feminines am completely loyal and faithful when in a relationship however when I met my twin there was just something about him. I tried to stay away, and mind my own business but through universal orchestrating we would have these little but meaningful soul exposing talks that allowed us to peer into each other. I knew from the jump he was like me not on the surface but deep inside. We both were going through trying times and just looking for equal ground.

When he looked at me I felt as if he could see my past , present and future. There was this undeniable pull towards him no matter how hard I fought it he was like a magnet pulling me into his orbit. We were separated for awhile while I went through the end of my dark night of the soul and I will say I did everything to cut off communication or even a chance meeting from happening with him and go on with my life however one faithful night his number appeared on my phone which was the final blow to my already doomed karmic false twin relationship. I decided to take a chance and put myself out there because for me it was clear who he was and I could no longer run from that truth so I embraced it.

Once together, we picked up where we left off. It was like not even a day had been missed and I knew that he was about to go through his dark night of the soul. We did the whole dance of runner/chaser, trying to work out how we were going to move forward on this journey. But I like many Divine Feminine’s that awaken first my Divine counter part was/is stuck and still coming into full knowledge of himself. There were so many things that happened that was confirmation to me that he was my twin. Powerful revelations that I have kept from him but have reviewed in-depth with spirit.

He doesn’t know how big of a part he played in my finally accepting my calling my life purpose of being a voice to others as well as bringing healing to others by walking into my full self it is through him that I was able to settle the last questions of the soul..who am I? Y am I here? Finding my path in the woods known as the world and also not being afraid of the “wolves” along the way. My twin showed me the deeper truth of myself, the places I ran from, the self destructive patterns, the self medicating through many vices, the many lies I told myself and how I wasn’t very kind to myself. I remember one day early on in our meeting each other something he said to me that was coded with spiritual keys to unlock the lies I had been telling myself.

He looked at me and said, “When are you going to love yourself?” On the surface it seemed like a very straightforward simple question but it was something that rocked my core and shook my foundations of the lies you know the ones we tell ourselves and inherit from others along the way. Here was myself in male form looking at me and saying cut the crap it’s time to love yourself. It was the first call to freedom I received from him there are many others I will get into at another time. It was the wake up call I needed to stop playing charades with myself and get real. It forced me to get on my path of discovering who I am. Spirit allowed me to have a beautiful year with him of self discovery and finding the many answers to his provocative question.

I discovered self love, stopped running from the parts of myself I had run from for so long the parts of me that didn’t fit the perceptions of my known avatar in the 3D, finally I learned the art of mastering my emotions I uncovered the ancient mysteries of myself and I discovered I am most powerful when standing in my truth even in the face of doubt or The questions from others. At this time we are in a separation phase again orchestrated by spirit because both of us need to fully walk in our truth and stand on our own before we can come together.

So, here I am accepting my calling as a Divine Feminine, coming into my gifts and sharing them with you. This is not a journey for the faint of heart nor is it a journey that one can rush the process. When you are looking at you mirroring you and triggering you to lead to the healing and ultimate freedom of you it takes time.

It takes time to undo lifespans of false programming caused by many things that we have taken into ourselves to program our minds as to how we show up in the 3D world. We say things like this is who I am because that is what they say I am. However deep inside our souls know that might not be the total truth. We all have those that project false things on us. I wonder how many of you called to walk this walk by the divine have been called things such as crazy or gaslighted by others for your spiritual discernment on places, people or even situations, that make others uncomfortable because you see with spirit eyes and the truth is you are seeing things correctly.

I am here to remind are not crazy. It is all set up by your higher self and the divine to get you to a place of full surrender, a place of no longer doubting who and what you are, a place of completely letting go of all ego programming, all control and destroying the walls that we had to build in order to protect our purity. The purity of self.

2018 is a powerful year for the Divine Feminine it is a year where Cinderella gets to go to the ball and no longer has to hide behind her step sisters (yes that is a respectable mention for Nubian Newz divine insight.) It is a time of standing in your power and knowing without a doubt who and what you are. It is a time of stepping into your purpose and destiny and no longer being plagued by the what if’s of insecurity, shame, doubt, etc. Whatever was holding you back before, it all has been released by Spirit and Spirit is calling you to step forward more like demanding. Your divine fairy godmother has gifted you for such a time as this and if you do not accept your calling there will be people that don’t get to be healed because the work you were uniquely called to do by spirit won’t get done. There is only one you in this grand play we call life. All of the Divine Feminines are beautiful and unique in their own way all have been equipped with gifts by spirit that are unique to their mission and life purpose. I have fully accepted my call and would like to extend the invite to other Divine Feminines and say as spirit said to me Welcome to the world’s stage. It’s time to shine and show the world exactly who you are who I created you to be. This is the reason you were born.

I am excited to be a part of something so grand and beautiful. I can’t wait to see what spirit does and has for each of us. It’s time to step into your destiny and show the world how it is really done. You have the full backing of spirit. Failure is not an option and with every step you take the next will be given. Welcome to your life Divine Feminine, make it glorious!

The Call…

My heart is heavy watching this shit in real time. Most don’t even recognize the crime. It’s open hunting season if you are a young black male. They shoot you for no reason if you are staying out of jail. It’s shoot first, ask questions later… shit more people cared about a fucking gator.

The outrage comes from trying to force us to live in a cage, a cage of the mind. But all that does is produce rage or trick us into thinking we are insane. They tell you in 2016 you are free but if you are black it comes with limitations. It’s time for sanctions and reparations! It’s time we take our country back! Yes, everyone knows it was built on the backs of blacks. Our sweat, tears and blood is what made freedom ring. Nothing is new today except the KKK got a new face. When will we wake up and see Master still got our black asses up the creek. Everybody got a slice of the pie except for me. You can’t hold back a man created in the image of G-D, and make him sit in the corner while you pull out your gun. You white washed history but we the people ain’t gonna let you wash our blood away its crying out from the ground everyday it’s time for you to face your crimes. Soon the last shall be first and the judgment will reverse the curse.

The Unspoken Dream

This is my sister and I’s tribute to the greatest musician to ever live. There are so many things I could share about how this man touched my life and the lives of those closest to me but one of the many lessons I learned from him was sometimes talking too much gets in the way of the art and how people experience it.  I will say my beautiful sister helped me write this after we first met him in 1998 in Vegas. We wanted him to know how much he inspired us and show appreciation for his craftsmanship. Enjoy a funny little story using some of his song titles. “True art like true love never dies” – MayReign


The Unspoken Dream

When Doves Cry I think of you standing in the Purple Rain. Your skin is Soft and Wet. I truly Adore 

you, more now than When You Were Mine. I can’t understand Why You Wanna Treat Me so Bad,

especially when I Feel For You and yearn for your Kiss. Right now Nothing Compares To You, you

made me so Delirious with your Blue Light that I Would Die 4 You. You were Insatiable and I was

your Hot Thing not your Nasty Girl. But that was during Courtin’ Time. You decided to Sleep

Around and Get Yo Groove On with Darling Nikki. I thought you said that you didn’t want to be

Somebody’s Somebody. I enjoyed reading The Morning Papers with you after you had been Loved

2 The 9’s. Our Love was The Max not Controversy and I thought I was your Sweet Baby and not

just a Curious Child that went with The Flow. You made me Escape to Erotic City for 17 Days. You

Took me to the Continental in your Little Red Corvette and gave me a coat of Pink Cashmere and a

Raspberry Beret. Then we went Uptown to Alphabet St. and you bought me 3 Chains O’ Gold. After

that you showed me off to your Girls and Boys at the Jam Of The Year in the White Mansion. You

whispered in my ear could you be The Most Beautiful Girl In The World, but before I replied you

said SHHH close your eyes. You took me upstairs and gave me One Kiss At A Time and said I

Wanna Melt With You for 7 days and 7 nights. I said Let’s Go Crazy and do it in Style because The

Love We Make is Gold. The Human Body should be treated like a Soul Sanctuary. The next day you

told me that I had to purify myself in The Holy River. Face Down (just like Elvis). We went to see

the Pope who told us about The Plan of a Saviour that would lead us to the New World of

Emancipation. After we left you said Baby I’m A Star and are you One Of Us. I said no, I don’t like

that Pop Life because there is nothing but Thieves In The Temple that want to take your Diamonds

And Pearls. You said Betcha By Golly Wow look at the time I gotta run. I said Damn U and your

Arrogance. Take Me With You to meet The Beautiful Ones in the Computer Blue. Don’t make me

have Another Lonely Christmas. Would it matter If I Was Your Girlfriend? Because I Wanna Be

Your Lover. You said baby don’t Push just keep Strollin’ , and Don’t Talk 2 Strangers. I said okay

Mr. Happy , I Can’t Make You Love Me and we went our separate ways. Now, I Count The Days

until you’ll be Right Back Here In My Arms. In This Bed I Scream because I can’t stop Dreamin’

About U and every night I check My Computer for your Emale. How Come U Don’t Call Me

Anymore? Sometimes I Hate U because I love U, but I can’t love you because I Hate U. I wonder if

you would treat your Friend, Lover, Sister, Mother/ Wife the way you have treated me, but I guess

that’s what I get for having Sex In The Summer on the “balcony” with you. I guess in the end that

Money Don’t Matter 2 Night and maybe next time I’ll use P Control. See you in the Dawn.

Written by N.S. And A.S. In 1998

STAR Bright

Have you ever known a superstar?

I mean the kind of person that makes everyone stop because they are in awe of them. I’m blessed enough to be the mother of one! The supreme love of my life is my daughter. Being a parent is one of the most serious jobs ever and sometimes we as parents get caught up in everything except the simple joy of the love between a parent and a child. I struggled to get pregnant and had one miscarriage but the child I was blessed with brings me unlimited joy! Sometimes we look for things outside of our family. Things like acceptance, support, encouragement, etc. Then we realize that usually those are the very things only our family can give us unconditionally. My daughter is unwavering in her love, approval and support of me, her mother. She eagerly awaits my new posts and checks daily to make sure I am fulfilling my writing dreams. She is the kind of person that makes dreamers like us believe in miracles, unicorns, fairies and the magic of creating. I am her biggest fan because she is an awesome creator herself. I know one day the world will take in her imagination and beauty as if it is sucking on honey.

This is for you my daughter, my joy! SHINE BRIGHT LIKE THE STAR YOU ARE FOR YOU COME FROM LOVE…

What If???

Recently, due to the major shifts and changes taking place in my life, I began to let that old familiar voice creep back into my head. My old frenemy, What If!

Oh how many halls of doubt and fear what if brings into my mind. Until my reprogrammed renewed mind sets in. Then there it was: What if love… What if success…What if true happiness and meaning.
I think I have said this before but the old me was probably the most scared person ever. She was a person that lived in technicolor what if and watched life pass her by. But when the ground is shook beneath your feet and you have no time to think but just act that is where you begin to build your muscle of trust. Life is a series of choices and once made one most be confident in that choice. But also one must be confident enough to change course and start down a whole new path if that choice does not work out.
Turn that old frenemy into an old friend! What if (something positive)! Insert positive thoughts because we are co-creators of our lives.
What if you are missing out on your biggest adventure YOUR LIFE!!

Triumphant Return…

Hello blog world

Long time, no talk.

Boy oh boy, be careful what you ask the “universe” for. I say that in a tongue and cheek kind of way.

But how many of us, on a daily basis, groan and complain and wish we had a different life?
There is nothing wrong with this because I believe it’s our souls way of saying we can do better. However, when we are pursuing that new and different life we often forget that there will be struggles. One cannot uproot themselves without it. I know when we last met I was going on and on about wanting change and boy did I get it! Lol.

The only thing I wasn’t prepared for was the process of change. I was one of those people that had to have all the answers before I stepped out on “faith”. However, the bible I read says that faith is hope in things not seen. Sometimes while operating in faith one isn’t going to have all the answers but they know they cannot stay stuck in what is. I’m sure some of the feelings I have had and those that have taken the journey with me resembled those of Moses. G-D gave clear and precise instructions to Moses to GO SPEAK TO PHARAOH AND LEAD MY PEOPLE TO FREEDOM. It amazes me how many times G-D will reveal his plan in such few words. We, like Moses, began to challenge G-D on all the unseen things that can, will, or should happen. But is that walking by “faith”?
Remember “faith” is hope in things not seen. Yes, our spirit man seems to get the concept and some of us can be seen at home and in places of worship jumping up and down at the idea. But there is a place called purgatory, the waiting place In-between the seen and the unseen. When G-D tells you to GO, He doesn’t always fill in the gaps. He sees the end from the beginning and He is the alpha and the omega. All we are to do is GO in Faith and trust in the things not seen.

How many of us are in the place between the instruction of the begotten promise?

Well I’m here to tell you there’s something else. It’s called resting on and in His promises. We might not have all the answers or what looks like a well laid out plan but when G-D says GO we have a choice. Either we will walk in faith or we will stay behind and wait for the next instruction that only comes after the first step. I wish I had all the answers and could calm everyone’s fears and minds but we have been called out of Egypt and we are marching into our promise land.