You ever get so caught up in something that you can’t see the forest from the trees? Well that was me with my false twin-flame. Yup, I am confessing the prior blog posts I wrote about twin-flames was about my false twin. I just didn’t want to believe it! Blame it on my zodiac sign, stubborn Taurus. Thankfully I finally found my real twin who, by the way, was there all along. SURPRISE! It was him I cried my heart out to when the false twin broke my heart.
My real twin said, “you are destined to be with someone greater.” At the time, I was too caught up in my own melodrama to really let those words sink in. Yet my beloved, my true beloved was ever so skillful,loving and very patient. From time to time he would check in on me and it was like the scene in the movie Somethings Gotta Give where Diane Keaton can’t stop crying after having her heart torn in pieces. She’s pouring out her thoughts on paper and just starts crying. My real twin is a remarkable man. He is many things. Pages upon pages couldn’t hold his story nor do him justice. He’s one of those beautiful people that if you are lucky enough to meet you know you are standing in the presence of greatness.
Of course it is not because he’s in your face but it is because his soul fills up every space he is in. So now where was I? Oh yes…he would from time to time come back and check on me. I would say, “I’m not ready, my heart is broken.” He would say, “well you gotta try something new” with his light up your soul smile. I would just look and take it in and say “nope not ready.” A few months passed by and I noticed I couldn’t stop thinking about him. There was something in his voice that seemed familiar so one night I asked spirit if I should approach him because I liked him a lot. He didn’t know but I did. I would try and play it cool when he called but when we would hang up I would do that teenage girl happy dance and scream into my pillow because he called me. Then I would just daydream about what it would be like if he liked me too.
So, Spirit was like finally! All the signs and signals we have been sending and arranging for her, she’s getting it. They gave me the go ahead and I sent him a message that read I’m ready for something new. He knew exactly what I meant and took it from there. He’s such a mans man…I swoon. This was vastly different then the false twin. Everything was easy…no push pull, no convincing…we just are. He brings out so many colors in me and when I look back he was always the strong support when Spirit was pushing me onto the world’s stage. We just fit. Finally I understood what Jada Pinket meant when she said to Tupac you give me orgasm without touching me. Just being in this man’s presence is a blissful experience and the foundation is love.
We can talk about anything and our lives mimic each other’s in so many ways. The one thing that stands out the most about this connection is it stands alone. It doesn’t need definition. It just is what it is and it is the most beautiful love I have ever known. Where everyone else took or stole from me, my beloved has helped me face the depths of my soul and has helped me heal. That is the difference between real love and fake love. Fake love takes and real love gives and forgives a multitude of all past sins. To my beloved, Thank You for loving me the way that you do.