Who am I? I am a voice calling out in the wilderness. I am the voice of the Divine Feminine, the one that is going through this confusing journey of self love. I went through the looking glass last year. It was a fun house type experience, the place of the dark night of the soul. The place where up is down and down is up. The place where one can no longer run from the truth of self. I speak my truth as a Divine Feminine and offer wisdom on how to navigate this walk.
So where do I begin…I guess how my twin and I met. We met about two years ago and it was one of those things where for me at least when I saw him I knew this was gonna be trouble. I was with someone at the time who I thought would be my life partner. I like all Divine Feminines am completely loyal and faithful when in a relationship however when I met my twin there was just something about him. I tried to stay away, and mind my own business but through universal orchestrating we would have these little but meaningful soul exposing talks that allowed us to peer into each other. I knew from the jump he was like me not on the surface but deep inside. We both were going through trying times and just looking for equal ground.
When he looked at me I felt as if he could see my past , present and future. There was this undeniable pull towards him no matter how hard I fought it he was like a magnet pulling me into his orbit. We were separated for awhile while I went through the end of my dark night of the soul and I will say I did everything to cut off communication or even a chance meeting from happening with him and go on with my life however one faithful night his number appeared on my phone which was the final blow to my already doomed karmic false twin relationship. I decided to take a chance and put myself out there because for me it was clear who he was and I could no longer run from that truth so I embraced it.
Once together, we picked up where we left off. It was like not even a day had been missed and I knew that he was about to go through his dark night of the soul. We did the whole dance of runner/chaser, trying to work out how we were going to move forward on this journey. But I like many Divine Feminine’s that awaken first my Divine counter part was/is stuck and still coming into full knowledge of himself. There were so many things that happened that was confirmation to me that he was my twin. Powerful revelations that I have kept from him but have reviewed in-depth with spirit.
He doesn’t know how big of a part he played in my finally accepting my calling my life purpose of being a voice to others as well as bringing healing to others by walking into my full self it is through him that I was able to settle the last questions of the soul..who am I? Y am I here? Finding my path in the woods known as the world and also not being afraid of the “wolves” along the way. My twin showed me the deeper truth of myself, the places I ran from, the self destructive patterns, the self medicating through many vices, the many lies I told myself and how I wasn’t very kind to myself. I remember one day early on in our meeting each other something he said to me that was coded with spiritual keys to unlock the lies I had been telling myself.
He looked at me and said, “When are you going to love yourself?” On the surface it seemed like a very straightforward simple question but it was something that rocked my core and shook my foundations of the lies you know the ones we tell ourselves and inherit from others along the way. Here was myself in male form looking at me and saying cut the crap it’s time to love yourself. It was the first call to freedom I received from him there are many others I will get into at another time. It was the wake up call I needed to stop playing charades with myself and get real. It forced me to get on my path of discovering who I am. Spirit allowed me to have a beautiful year with him of self discovery and finding the many answers to his provocative question.
I discovered self love, stopped running from the parts of myself I had run from for so long the parts of me that didn’t fit the perceptions of my known avatar in the 3D, finally I learned the art of mastering my emotions I uncovered the ancient mysteries of myself and I discovered I am most powerful when standing in my truth even in the face of doubt or The questions from others. At this time we are in a separation phase again orchestrated by spirit because both of us need to fully walk in our truth and stand on our own before we can come together.
So, here I am accepting my calling as a Divine Feminine, coming into my gifts and sharing them with you. This is not a journey for the faint of heart nor is it a journey that one can rush the process. When you are looking at you mirroring you and triggering you to lead to the healing and ultimate freedom of you it takes time.
It takes time to undo lifespans of false programming caused by many things that we have taken into ourselves to program our minds as to how we show up in the 3D world. We say things like this is who I am because that is what they say I am. However deep inside our souls know that might not be the total truth. We all have those that project false things on us. I wonder how many of you called to walk this walk by the divine have been called things such as crazy or gaslighted by others for your spiritual discernment on places, people or even situations, that make others uncomfortable because you see with spirit eyes and the truth is you are seeing things correctly.
I am here to remind you..you are not crazy. It is all set up by your higher self and the divine to get you to a place of full surrender, a place of no longer doubting who and what you are, a place of completely letting go of all ego programming, all control and destroying the walls that we had to build in order to protect our purity. The purity of self.
2018 is a powerful year for the Divine Feminine it is a year where Cinderella gets to go to the ball and no longer has to hide behind her step sisters (yes that is a respectable mention for Nubian Newz divine insight.) It is a time of standing in your power and knowing without a doubt who and what you are. It is a time of stepping into your purpose and destiny and no longer being plagued by the what if’s of insecurity, shame, doubt, etc. Whatever was holding you back before, it all has been released by Spirit and Spirit is calling you to step forward more like demanding. Your divine fairy godmother has gifted you for such a time as this and if you do not accept your calling there will be people that don’t get to be healed because the work you were uniquely called to do by spirit won’t get done. There is only one you in this grand play we call life. All of the Divine Feminines are beautiful and unique in their own way all have been equipped with gifts by spirit that are unique to their mission and life purpose. I have fully accepted my call and would like to extend the invite to other Divine Feminines and say as spirit said to me Welcome to the world’s stage. It’s time to shine and show the world exactly who you are who I created you to be. This is the reason you were born.
I am excited to be a part of something so grand and beautiful. I can’t wait to see what spirit does and has for each of us. It’s time to step into your destiny and show the world how it is really done. You have the full backing of spirit. Failure is not an option and with every step you take the next will be given. Welcome to your life Divine Feminine, make it glorious!